26-05-2016, 05:41 PM
Good ref from the "LALALALAwe'renotlistening"-korps the night after posting the above - to; "Do you think that anything you say will change my mind?" On the basis of your being an individuated, psychopathic, sado-narcissistic, fraudulent piece of shit who's stareing up perhaps 4 barrels of life sentences & a shitload more, do you think that I think anything I can say will change your mind, you massive, corpulent, intoxicated, seedy, sordid, skulking choad?"
Current ref themes, all from yesterday; "close to death", "disappeared", "never heard from again", "It's pay-back time". Oh yeah, and "dangerous"; have to be careful here as everything they ref goes 2-ways, but taking it as I suppose it's intended, of course I'm dangerous, not only am I an "enemy agent", but I'm also "the most eveil man on the planet", and what's the point in being the most evil man on the planet if you aren't at least a little bit dangerous?.. 'You' can't be a superdooperhero 'less there's cause, an' these ppl are the most massively egregious superdooperheros. Not so much ass-hatted as rectally balaclava'ed superdooper'eros & "gods". It kinda follows from the bitty dream choreographies last night/this morning where they're trying to program me to conform to their narrative; I caught quite alot of it, then fell asleep and lost it again, but it had all the 'flava' of "cheat!", which is soo true, except that it isn't - I've never won a game of Monopoly 'cos I don't steal (from the 'bank') or cheat. Never once used a cheat in a game (except 1x's offling when I wanted to get a birds eye view of the terrain graphics in STALKER. 'Part from that, precisely nish, nowt, fuckall. Don't cheat don't lie, & that's their problem.
I've seen an Advanced Nurse Practitioner nurse (kind of a sub-psychologist/psychiatrist) a few times 2yrs or so ago, voluntarily, for the 'all-clear' that I got, & for the sheer hell of it (as in 'fun'). I was curious when she'd said she'd got a letter from the Home Office about me, but when I'd enquired, she'd "not read it". I dropped-off a few docs to her a few weeks ago as I'm confident enough now to say that I've had voices in my head - synthetic telepathy, and much else besides that are intended to work towards their shitbucketlist goal of 'paranoid schiz-', because I'm soooo not either of those things. I'm pretty confident that I can talk to anyone about what's happened in terms of at least apparently demonstrable science fact (that's to say, alot of it's 'just web pages' & there's alot of bollocks out there, but sensible ppl can see or have an intuitive guess, about what's actual-factual, & what's not). So, I'm telling her this stuff (I like her alot, a good rapport I think, on a personal level, honest communication) and after she's "Hmmm"'ed and half-nodded in an accepting way - & I'm talking to her about science & psychological techniques only, an' she starts-up with the suggestion of me taking some drug (unnamed) or other "to act as a filter". I was slightly taken aback by this an' said that she was being disingenuous (don't think that was the actual word I used - too confrontational). She says this a couple of times, & I'm saying to her "How's any drug going to 'filter' this shit? How's it going to filter microwave auditories or the neuralgics? It's no biggie, I'm on top of it - I see thru' it all for what it is". An' she says, accepting of what I'm saying, "Yes, I know they can do these things. So, you think it's what? - an operation gone wrong?" (I paraphrase some of this, but it's very accurate, if not precise). "Clearly," I say, "it's just that. A total fuck-up which I'm on top of - I'm fine".
Two other things there; last I saw her, she'd said I was an "enigma" which thrilled me no end - >grins like a Cheshire cat<, smug bastard; and the last time 2yrs ago I'd seen her, when, despite thoroughly enjoying our chats, I'd declined more meetings/appointments, on leaving, she'd held my hand and said "Good luck", which was nice, but I don't much like being wished 'good luck' since then, feels somewhat like a presumptuous pisstake - (sorry 'D', but I had to bite my tongue a bit).
When I called at Market St copshop in N-u-T, spoke to a copper in the interview room, told him I was being watched & followed 'round my flat by my neighbour; he'd fucked-off to check-up on her; came back, stood at the door & beckoned me out, different expression on his face from before, gave me a LogNo. & told me I should go to a more local, -not the main, copshop. I wonder if that's normal behaviour/procedure. I bet it isn't.
Current ref themes, all from yesterday; "close to death", "disappeared", "never heard from again", "It's pay-back time". Oh yeah, and "dangerous"; have to be careful here as everything they ref goes 2-ways, but taking it as I suppose it's intended, of course I'm dangerous, not only am I an "enemy agent", but I'm also "the most eveil man on the planet", and what's the point in being the most evil man on the planet if you aren't at least a little bit dangerous?.. 'You' can't be a superdooperhero 'less there's cause, an' these ppl are the most massively egregious superdooperheros. Not so much ass-hatted as rectally balaclava'ed superdooper'eros & "gods". It kinda follows from the bitty dream choreographies last night/this morning where they're trying to program me to conform to their narrative; I caught quite alot of it, then fell asleep and lost it again, but it had all the 'flava' of "cheat!", which is soo true, except that it isn't - I've never won a game of Monopoly 'cos I don't steal (from the 'bank') or cheat. Never once used a cheat in a game (except 1x's offling when I wanted to get a birds eye view of the terrain graphics in STALKER. 'Part from that, precisely nish, nowt, fuckall. Don't cheat don't lie, & that's their problem.
I've seen an Advanced Nurse Practitioner nurse (kind of a sub-psychologist/psychiatrist) a few times 2yrs or so ago, voluntarily, for the 'all-clear' that I got, & for the sheer hell of it (as in 'fun'). I was curious when she'd said she'd got a letter from the Home Office about me, but when I'd enquired, she'd "not read it". I dropped-off a few docs to her a few weeks ago as I'm confident enough now to say that I've had voices in my head - synthetic telepathy, and much else besides that are intended to work towards their shitbucketlist goal of 'paranoid schiz-', because I'm soooo not either of those things. I'm pretty confident that I can talk to anyone about what's happened in terms of at least apparently demonstrable science fact (that's to say, alot of it's 'just web pages' & there's alot of bollocks out there, but sensible ppl can see or have an intuitive guess, about what's actual-factual, & what's not). So, I'm telling her this stuff (I like her alot, a good rapport I think, on a personal level, honest communication) and after she's "Hmmm"'ed and half-nodded in an accepting way - & I'm talking to her about science & psychological techniques only, an' she starts-up with the suggestion of me taking some drug (unnamed) or other "to act as a filter". I was slightly taken aback by this an' said that she was being disingenuous (don't think that was the actual word I used - too confrontational). She says this a couple of times, & I'm saying to her "How's any drug going to 'filter' this shit? How's it going to filter microwave auditories or the neuralgics? It's no biggie, I'm on top of it - I see thru' it all for what it is". An' she says, accepting of what I'm saying, "Yes, I know they can do these things. So, you think it's what? - an operation gone wrong?" (I paraphrase some of this, but it's very accurate, if not precise). "Clearly," I say, "it's just that. A total fuck-up which I'm on top of - I'm fine".
Two other things there; last I saw her, she'd said I was an "enigma" which thrilled me no end - >grins like a Cheshire cat<, smug bastard; and the last time 2yrs ago I'd seen her, when, despite thoroughly enjoying our chats, I'd declined more meetings/appointments, on leaving, she'd held my hand and said "Good luck", which was nice, but I don't much like being wished 'good luck' since then, feels somewhat like a presumptuous pisstake - (sorry 'D', but I had to bite my tongue a bit).
When I called at Market St copshop in N-u-T, spoke to a copper in the interview room, told him I was being watched & followed 'round my flat by my neighbour; he'd fucked-off to check-up on her; came back, stood at the door & beckoned me out, different expression on his face from before, gave me a LogNo. & told me I should go to a more local, -not the main, copshop. I wonder if that's normal behaviour/procedure. I bet it isn't.
Martin Luther King - "Injustice anywhere is a threat to justice everywhere."
Albert Camus - "The only way to deal with an unfree world is to become so absolutely free that your very existence is an act of rebellion".
Douglas MacArthur — "Whoever said the pen is mightier than the sword obviously never encountered automatic weapons."
Albert Camus - "Nothing is more despicable than respect based on fear."
Albert Camus - "The only way to deal with an unfree world is to become so absolutely free that your very existence is an act of rebellion".
Douglas MacArthur — "Whoever said the pen is mightier than the sword obviously never encountered automatic weapons."
Albert Camus - "Nothing is more despicable than respect based on fear."